FORE!!!

Oh! This was taken at Nana's in Bradenton...we were going to the beach to have breakfast with everyone. What a fun trip. I'm so glad we went! Lovin' YOU, always...

Another great Halloween, Sucka! Lovin' You!
Clicka (OWCaacba)

Always in my heart...

Gimme your best Tom Keifer! Ha! Lovin' YOU!

Kim's missin' you too...the fun we had with that camera. This was one of our 'bar art' pictures. Good times...always. Love you, Sucka.

Oh, Sucka...missin' you so much.

My beautiful Dan and his sister, Gayla. This is another favorite picture...you can tell that Dan loved his family...he looked so content and happy when they were around. Missin' you, Sucka.

Ha!! Baaaaaaah...

Another experimental picture...

Miss you Sucka...Hey, can you get me some of those curds...from that booth right behind you? Ha! Feeling Minnesota!? Let's have a little snacker! (Love you, too, Rob!) Can I also get some hot dish and Johnny cakes? I love you, Caacba!

Sucka and Jacquie Bear...Florida '96

It's amazing how I can look at your pictures and miss you so much! EVERYTHING about you my friend was special to me. Dan you were EVERYTHING to me and so much more. No one can ever replace you, not now, not ever. Our souls touched in some mysterious way, it's difficult to explain. I hope I had the same effect on you as you had on me Dan. I wish you would come back.

Your Friend Bill

My Dearest Sucka,
I'm sorry it's been a while...I don't know quite what to do with myself. I think it has finally hit me that you are gone. No more phone calls, letters or talk of our pilgrimage back to Seattle. The one thing I'm totally grateful for is the memories. ALL the memories...the good, the bad and the Kabuki nightmare!!! Ha! I put this picture with my note because I know how much you loved to drive and you drove that big car with precision (or simply just really GOOD luck!!). Remember at the Taco Bell drive-thru that one night...man, I thought you were gonna take that light post out! You had to have missed it by millimeters, "Swing this big bitch around like you own it!" I recall saying, amazed that we didn't make contact with any parking lot fixtures! I love you Sucka. I miss you more than you could ever know. No more memories to make, I can only think about the whack, crazy ass shit we did...and did we! Love you Sucka. You made me dance, made me sing...you were with me for my very first karaoke song..."Big Balls" by AC/DC! And at the gay bar of all places!! Ha! We will meet up again...we've got a lot of catching up to do. More later...Love you...TONS! Oh, where has my Sucka gone? I do love you Caacba.
Clicka

Sucka,
I think this one was taken at Rob's parents house. I thought it fit this time of year...and it's a great picture!
Love you,
OWSucka

This is one of my favorite pictures...I love it!! Dan and his brother Jess...

"I GOT YOU BABE!" Ha! The Sonny & Cher of the Eastside!! Sucka, Kim and I had a great chat about you tonight and I think we have so much fun talking about all the splendid, crazy and drunken things we've made it through! Remember that night we all got boozed up and you jumped the fence and was jumping on the neighbor's backyard trampoline? THE BEST. Everyone was always so jealous 'cause we always had the MOSTEST fun...HA! Love you, Sucka! I'm slowly but surely sucking it up and getting back with it. I know you wouldn't want me being a blubbery muppin for too long...I sure wish you were here. There isn't a fence I wouldn't scale for you (and no beer I wouldn't drink for you tee hee!), Sucka. Lovin' you. AND...I will never forget the very first SUCKA I uttered...you would've thought we'd struck oil in the back yard (you were so very proud)...SMOOCHES.

My Dearest Sucka,
How's everything? Good here, getting better anyway. Still missing you, but I don't guess that will ever go away. I've been searching for some good heartwrenching music to be heartbroken to. And believe it or not, Dwight's not gettin' it for me on this one. I don't think we shared so much love for that particular artist! Ha! How 'bout some Buckcherry for yo ass! Ha! I don't know, Sucka...I miss you so damn much. Love you forever and always...the other white Caacba.

I miss the Rose Street apartment...

Hey Buddy,

Well, it's been over a month now and I'm still thinking about you everyday. I miss talking to you so badly! You have brought Heather into my life and that's just INSANE how that worked out. She's awesome dude! I tried to call Freddy but he didn't call me back. I hope he's alright. My liver biopsy results came back and it's not all that bad yet so that's good news. I see my doctor tomorrow to confirm everything and talk about the results further. Until I check in again.....I love you bro!

Bill

As I stand at the crossroad,
I see the sun sinking low...
With my cross of indecision,
I can't tell which way to go...
Now I have seen the seven wonders
And I have sailed the seven seas,
I've walked and talked with angels,
And danced all night with gypsy queens...

All in all it's been a rocky road,
Twists and turns along the way...
But, I still pray for tomorrow,
All my hopes, my dreams
Don't fade away... Don't fade away...

I have painted many portraits,
Memories of love and pain,
Though cut down by life's deceptions
I found the strength to start again...

All in all it's been a rocky road,
Twists and turns along the way...
But, I still pray for tomorrow,
All my hopes, my dreams
Don't fade away... Don't fade away.

Heaven help a man
Trying to make up his mind,
With the darkness closing in,
I feel I'm running out of time...
Shine a light for me,
Help me find the way to go,
And take me where I've never been before...

And so I stand at the crossroad,
Watching the sun sinking low...
With my cross of indecision,
Trying to find the way to go...

All in all it's been a rocky road,
Twists and turns along the way,
But, I still pray for tomorrow
All my hopes, my dreams
Don't fade away...


Coverdale/Vandenberg

Do you remember
Standing on the shore,
Head in the clouds,
Your pockets filled with dreams
Bound for glory
On the seven seas of life,
But, the ocean is deeper than it seems

The wind was with you
When you left on the morning tide,
You set your sail for an island in the sun,
On the horizon, dark clouds up ahead,
For the storm has just begun

Take me with you,
Take me far away,
Lead me to the distant shore

Sail your ship across the water,
Spread your wings across the sky
Take the time to see
Youre the one who holds the key,
Or sailing ships will pass you by

You cry for mercy,
When you think you've lost your way,
You drift alone, if all your hope is gone
So find the strength and you will see
You control, your destiny,
After all is said and done

So take me with you,
Take me far away,
An lead me to the distant shore

Sail your ship across the water,
Spread your wings across the sky
Take the time to see
Youre the one who holds the key,
Or sailing ships will pass,
Sailing ships will pass you by...

Take me with you,
Take me far away,
Well ride the wind across the sky
Spread your wings and you will see
You control, your destiny,
So sailing ships dont pass you by

So take me with you,
Take me far away,
Well ride the wind across the sky
Spread your wings and you will see
You control, your destiny,
So sailing ships dont pass you by...

You'll find that you're the only one
Can sail your ship across the sky
Coverdale/Vandenberg

Was this from the fountain at APU? Ha! I'll have to find the picture of Sam, the security guard that came by and told us to get out.

That was a good Halloween...

I've been listening to "Sailing Ships" the acoustic version on Youtube, of course! Ha! Oh, Sucka, I can't help but think about you when I hear that song. I miss you so bad. I've never quite felt this kind of heartache before. I guess I've never lost someone that meant so very much to me. But, I'll quit blubbering for now...remember the blubbery muppins from the restaurant? The lady couldn't say blueberry muffins!! Laugh my ass off! Oh, Sucka. I could never replace you. No one ever understood our silly bullshit. I love you. Forever and always...everything reminds me of you. Ha! Especially funny shit that happens in everyday life. "Please get better, Mantu!!!" I gotta go or I'm going to soak my keyboard. Goodbye for now. Clicka

PS I put a couple pictures of Sitka's Midnight Lady. I thought it might be nice. I know you loved her a whole lot.

Sucka, I miss you so much.

Here is a picture of "Sitka's Midnight Lady" that Dan sent to me around Christmas time. The back of the picture read: "She's a porn star too!" Ha! Love you Caacba! Forever & Always...Lovin' you is easy, 'cause you're beautiful...

Here she is...Sitka's Midnight Lady! Dan's beloved girl. He loved this dog so much. I'm so thankful that Freddy was able to continue caring for her, as Dan would have been heartbroken for her to go anywhere else. Thanks Fred! And thank you, Lady, for making Dan so happy.

Dearest Sucka,
This was that funky pinata that Kim and I made for Allison's birthday! Ha! I think it made a more appropriate hat for my beautiful Sucka! Ha! Ha! Always a blast! Miss you madly!
Lovin' you!
Clicka

Hey there buddy,

I got my liver biopsy and it wasn't as bad as I thought. That cocktail of Fentynol and Versed had me feeling mighty good. Now I just hope my liver comes back semi-healthy so I won't have to do any treatment right away. I've heard that shit just sucks. I wish you were around to talk to. I miss hearing our voice, and your words of encouragement. I know you're looking out for me in some way we've yet to discover. It's all so surreal still. I feel fine! But apparantly can plan on getting sick eventually. Well, let me tell you..; this "sista" ain't going down without a damned fight girl. LOL!!! I'll throw on my Scorpion wig and unleash some hell on these mutha's! LOL!!! To be quite honest with you Dan, living life with this HEP C bullshit really sucks, but living life without you in it anymore "really" f**king sucks! August was quite the blow for me, with you leaving us and then the diagnoses. It's a struggle to smile some days. I catch myself drifting off into la-la land. I wish I could erase all of August, but I can't. I still feel like I'm losing myself in a strange way. As wierd as it may sound, I'm going to start praying and see if that helps. Kind of like that "Footprints" poem;...,maybe God is carrying me right now??? Maybe that's why I feel so disconnected, so f**king lost??? It can only get better I keep reminding myself, but then I don't want to kid myself either. I think I will try calling Freddy today, just to say hello and that I'm thinking about him. I know he's hurting pretty bad. If there's anyway you can work some kind of magic from up there Dan, I could really use your help right now. Hell, show me a sign or flash your tits or something girl. I miss you is all;...I miss you really bad...

Your Friend,
Bill

My Sucka.

Dearest Sucka,
Just a little note to let you know that I'm thinkin' about ya (always)! Gayla and Rob have shared some more of their pictures with me and I so appreciate that. There are some really great pictures of you, most that I've never seen before. Splendid. I will share some of these pictures with everyone through this web page. I won't be greedy and keep them to myself, well, not ALL of them! Ha! I've been keeping in touch with Bill and heard about his health issues. Keep an eye on Bill, Sucka. We both miss you so much. You are our common bond and we both love talking about you...keeping you alive in our thoughts and memories. So, more later and I love you lots.
Peas 'n carrots (haha...never forget that!)
Clicka

Tuesday September 4th, 2007

Hey Buddy,

Love the pics that Heather is putting up. Well, I got kind of a health scare as I was diagnosed with HEP-C and have to have my liver biopsy on Thursday morning. Fingers crossed there's not that much damage to my liver, but am prepared to go through whatever treatment necessary to treat it. CRAZY I know! But then this "sista" did some heavy partying back in the day and am not at all surprised. I'll keep my head up and ask that you look out for me. Still missing you like crazy! Well, had to share this with my "sista", and will check back in soon enough probably after the results come back. Love ya...

Your Friend,
Bill

Gettin' ready for the party...

Sucka,

I gave my mom the link for this site and she laughed so hard at the picture of you at the Gibsonton sign! Remember, she told us, when we were headed to Florida, that we should stay away from Gibsonton because she heard it was "an evil little town" and sho' nuff! there we were, hangin' on the highway sign and going into the Savon grocery store to use the bathroom! "Sucka, if I don't come out in five minutes...send in the posse!" Oh! GOOD TIMES! That trip will be with me forever...I'm sure you and Gini are talking about it right now! Love you both.

Clicka

Caacba, you were such a good sport. This was a period of time when I took all kinds of pictures to experiment with my camera and all of the settings it has. I always loved this picture...and I will always love you, too, Sucka.
Clicka

This was the excellent photo that the family put on the cards for the ceremony. Gayla said this was taken at a James Taylor show...one of Dan's faves! Beautiful. Lovin' you, Dan.

08/30/2007

When you hear of Andy LaRoque and Mickey Dee what's the 1st thing that comes to your mind? Oh......, f**k yeah! you guessed it right my friend; King Diamond's ABIGAIL !!!! I was jamming to that on my way into work this morning and couldn't help but reflect back to the time you turned me on to that! With that melodic crunch on guitar and those ting-ting-ting on the high hat with Diamond just oooh-ww-iiiii in the background! Just f**king love it Dan! On the 17th day of July 1777; Abigail must be nailed to her coffin with 7 silver spikes; 1 thru each arm, hand, and knee..., and may the last of the 7 be driven though her mouth so that she may never rise and curse evil again !!!! I owe it to you buddy! Still rocking on, still remembering, and still missing "you"!

Love,
Bill